~~~~~~~~~ ✯ only time will tell the life of the ultimate undefined teenager ✯ ~~~~~~~~~

ϟ she tells me she has 9 months and that she’s so grateful ; tears in her eyes, looking like she’s gonna cry ϟ
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starting over - macklemore
 
agh. i got the macklemore cd today. #holla~~~ this man is my rapper holy s.hit. it's amazing. i've been waiting so long to buy this cd. i listen to it non-stop on spotify. his songs are so much better than lots of the rappers out there. his songs really mean alot. especially starting over & same love. listen to macklemore. he's good.
and don't say that you do because you listen to thrift shop, or can't hold us non-stop, because that's only 2 songs.
seriously.
listen to his album.
 
i get out of school on wednesday :D
tomorrow i have 2 finals: science & honors english.
tuesday i have 3 finals: spanish, honors history, and geometry
*forced smile*
*sarcasitc tone* yaaaaay.
wednesday is a half day so i get out around like 12 maybe? idek. it's my first year in high school.
 
well 1 good thing happened on friday.
the guy i have THE HUGEST CRUSH on, signed my yearbook *.*
 
and i see your messages. i know you want me to talk to you. well you know what i'm going to do? i'm going to wait until friday to talk to you. because that how long you were going to wait to tell me the truth before i figured it out for myself.
give me space, or else i'm going to do something i'll most likely regret.
- you know who you are -
 
well, yeah.
that's it ^.^

read this or not.
this is basically a rant.
or something to get my feelings out.
and something to help me cry.
because i need to.
because i'm hurt.
 
don't read this and roll your eyes.
don't read this and think i'm overreacting.
don't read this and think you didn't hurt me.
because you did.
and you hurt me bad.
 
it's been 4 months, and i've learned to trust you. i've learned to call you one of my best friends. i've learned to tell you everything about me.
well that... was all for... this?
 
we first started talking, and immediately we clicked and we had things in common right away. i don't know if you do, but i remember the things we planned together, i remember the things we called ourselves, i remember the things we have in common. you literally made my day everyday when we talked.
 
a new account started tagging me, making the same sets like you do.
making their set descriptions like you do.
making their tags the people you talked to.
 
and i had the guts to ask you if that account was you. and you said it wasn't. and i believed you.
 
you knew that i got my ipod taken away so i couldn't answer your kiks. well i got them today. and i got the one where it said to SPECIFICALLY send you a kik to THE NEW KIK.
 
and you know what you did when i messaged that kik? you asked me who i was.
F O U R
M O N T H S
OF TELLING YOU ALL THAT I WENT THROUGH.
and you had the guts to f.ucking say 'who are you?'. really. really?
well thanks. that felt wonderful.
 
but you know what the worst part was?
your kik matched the new account that was tagging me.
 
you know that saying 'you shouldn't miss people who don't miss you, right?'
well i can't incorporate that to my life right now. you know why?
because you matter to me. you mean more than the world to me. you mean as much as my best friends do.
 
and the reason why i put 'mean' and 'matter' to me, is because i do still care about you. even if you don't care about me. it's going to be hard for me to let go of a friend like you.
 
you helped me through my depression.
you helped me through when i almost started to starve myself again.
you helped me through all my friend problems, only to know now that you're going to become one.
 
i thought you were different, but always, i thought wrong. i can't take 10 deep breaths and be okay. a friend like you is hard to forget. i wish you didn't do this to me.
 
now if you ever decide to talk to me again.
and you ask me how i've been.
i'll be honest.
 
i'll tell you all i've been through.
i'll tell you about the cuts that i might make.
i'll tell you about all the thoughts of me taking too much of my pills.
i'll tell you how i became depressed again because i wish a friend like you didn't leave me.
 
you promised me not to cut myself again.
you promised me not to make too much pills.
haha.
you're funny.
 
you could have told me how you felt about our friendship. you could have told me about how you just wanted to end the friendship and everything we had. you could have just told me instead of leaving a trail of lies for me to figure out this way. you could have told me that you didn't want to talk to me anymore. but no. i had to figure out the hard way. thanks again.
 
you probably don't give a rats a.ss about how i feel.
you probably don't give a f.uck about how i feel right now.
but wherever you are.
just know.
there's someone dying on the inside because of you.
 
well.
it was nice while it lasted.
 
sissy...

@hailey-direction
 
team: Liam James Payne ~ the smart one ♥
 
Trivia:
1.) Which song did Niall sing for his audition?
~ "So Sick" by Ne-Yo

2.)Which song did Harry sing for his audition?
~ "Isn't She Lovely" by Stevie Wonder

3.)Which song did Zayn sing for his audition?
~ "Let Me Love You" by Mario

4.) Which song did Louis sing for his audition?
~ "Hey There Delilah" by The Plain White T's

5.) Which song did Liam sing for his audtion?
~ 2008, "Fly Me To The Moon" by Frank Sinatra
~ 2010, "Cry Me A River" by Michael Bublé
 
~ also use a video diary picture (10 points) ✓
 
~ tag your teammates (5 points) ✓
 
~ use the X-Factor logo in you set.(5 points) ✓
 
~Tag your Teammates (5points)
alpha: @fashion-challenges// lexie♥
O1. @skye-loves-to-write//Kiana Nicole ♥
O2. @gracestardoll// Gracie ♥
O3. @itsabbeygilbertt// abbey ♥
O4. @jjhamblett// Solafa ♥

she's morphine, queen of my vaccine
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breezeblocks - alt-j
 
so, i think it's time to start on my new taglist ^.^
 
like to be on it.
comment for a special tag.
comment if you would want to STAY on my taglist.
if you're special to me, then you're gonna stay no matter what. ahha (;
if you want to be special to me, get your booty to my inbox ^.^
 
ϟ old, but gold taggies ϟ
 
@forgetfulyouth the demi to my selena. my biffle ❤
@your-little-lady my long lost twin; my sissy ♕
@yourashb3nson THE FINISHING PART TO THE HALEB && SPOBY SOUL SISTAAAHHHS TWINS ♡
@hannahtomlinson4ever i got, i got, i got your back girl. ✌
@niyallsprincess my australian friend who i go around wishing i hit fry pans with and travel the world with✿
@yours-truly-p4lvin ❤
@t4-yl0r ❤
@jjhamblett ❤

'and you were miles away, I'd fold them end over end to bring you closer to me.'
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if these sheets were states - all time low ♥
^^^^
second fave band omfg.
 
@yours-truly-p4lvin
well, to keep myself awake for a little longer, i decided to make their houses ^.^
 
@yours-truly-p4lvin & @your-little-lady: i'll be going to sleep at 11:30. i have to LAST THURSDAY AND FRIDAY OF THE SCHOOL YEAR :D HOLLA~~~

h.ell yes.
 
my wifey is back. (spencer hastings aka troian bellisario)
 
@your-little-lady where've you been bby? i'm sorry that i don't have my ipod so i can't kik you D: but i'm getting worried, i haven't seen you active at all :c

<---- is something like that to happen to me too much to ask for? probably. i've been waiting 15 years for someone special, and maybe he hasn't showed himself, or he's right in front of me. but i hope one day i'll find him, or know who he is ^.^
 
tonight, you're perfect.
no i lied.
every night you're perfect.
and i love you.
all of you.
and today was a super, duper good day.
but i have to take 1 of my 2 math finals tomorrow.
i feel inspiration for a real set tomorrow.
so yeah, that's it ^.^
 
good night tumblr.
good night polyvore.
good night @forgetfulyouth
good night @your-little-lady
good night @hannahtomlinson4ever
good night @yours-truly-p4lvin
good night @yourashb3nson
good night @niyallsprincess
 
good night
i love you
sweet dreams
i'll see you all tomorrow
 
♡♡♡, arianna

ah, there you go again tumblr.
perfect in every way.
i love you.
'till death do us part.
 
@FORGETFULYOUTH
CAN WE JUST TAKE IN A MOMENT AND COMPARE LIAM TO USA. IN THE SAME SENTENCE.
CAN WE JUST.
 
F-CKING TANK TOP LIAM IS THE DEATH OF ME. AND THE REASON I CONVULSE ON THE GROUND.
 
GET DOWN ON ONE KNEE NOW LIAM AND ASK ME TO MARRY YOU.
 
MY FEELS ARE THROUGH A F-CKING BLACK HOLE RIGHT NOW
 
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MY HEARTBEAT

yes tumblr.
tonight...
you are perfect.
 

@forgetfulyouth i'm screaming.
look at zayn and liam and louis.
they're all mocking me.
because they're all my faves holy sh.it
 
@hannahtomlinson4ever looks like your husband is cheating on you. and wait... so is mine.

i think she follows some of you guys already. i gave her my taglist because you guys are fab ❤
 
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